No one is without struggle or circumstance, that’s what makes us alike… Isn’t it?? The fact that we are ALL flawed in some way. Maybe that is the beauty of everything… It’s takes something dark to lighten up our lives… Like hitting rock bottom in order to see that there is actually a top of the peak. Sometimes our vision gets blurred by non sense or there is a comfort we find in our safety net. But when is it time to cut the rope, when is it o.k to actually fall and hurt ourselves???… I can’t live “safe” because that’s not what it takes for me to succeed, it’s gonna take me scraping my knees and gasping for breath to know that I am indeed living…
Inspiration is all around us… We just ignore it, we get distracted by nonsense and miss out on natural motivation. A energy that is just present and available for us at anytime… It’s a passion. For me, I see it in nature or whenever I think about the natural beauty of the world. It’s sets a fire in my gut, a drive that pushes me on to the next day. Some don’t have the inspiration to even live yet alone create. Learn to seek out things that inspire u, things that satisfy your natural energy… What’s a life with no passion, no sense of purpose??
Am I at the point where I can claim that my profession is a recording artist?? Or shall I continue to say I slang yogurt for a living… While being greeted by judging eyes and the response of “oh really??”. Not that I give two shits about someone’s opinion, but it’s something that plays over and over in my thoughts. What do I really want to accomplish?? What are my motives? Does anyone even give a shit about my music??
As I unenthusiastically serve yogurt to people who annoy me beyond belief, just by uttering the word “hi”. I think about my B.A degree, a college grad who slangs fucking yogurt for a living. I could just slap that smile right of their yogurt eating lips… Then I realize I’m being quite irrational. These are human beings, with lives, families and a story that I don’t have access to… Maybe this moment here at a yogurt shop is the highlight of someone’s day. Then it hits me, just how impressionable our lives are and then I ask myself, what am I doing to make an impact? Does my music inspire? And if it doesn’t, I have to make a change.
Music has power… Almost to the point where it can be intimidating to a bubbling artist such as myself. So bravery is key and that’s something that I’m pretty confident I have! Yes I’m brave enough to actually chase my dream, even if I have to support it by slanging yogurt. I’m brave enough to leave a piece of myself in each song that I write and share my soul in hopes that someone can relate to it in anyway. So… I guess that answers my question, I am in fact a legit recording artist…
So… I’ve decided to actually use this blog. It shall be my muse, my journal and it shall aim to inspire while documenting my journey. There will be good times, questionable moments wrapped up in a layer vulnerability… I here now give myself to you cyber world with hopes that it does me any good.
As someone who spends hours upon hours reading blogs, I thought why not make my own damn blog!! Instead of going the route of celebrity news and drama, I would rather share things like ART, MUSIC PHOTOGRAPHY and whatever other random shit I think is worth my time … lol.